Day 2

I never have thought of surviving the first day without Redza would be so hard. It's 8 am now, and I just woke up. It is not the same feeling without him around, and it is so not fun at ALL. We chatted yesterday till nearly 2 am here.. poor baby. It's sunday morning, and I just remembered Redza's sunday morning routine, so what I'm gonna do now is turn on the tv, and watch the..telefoot! Oh boy, I still can't belive that he's not in France.. Oh, oh what the..???OMG! I'm literally watching the tv now, and I just found out about Mariah Carey and Nick Cannon MARRIED??!! I read the news about it before, but I thought it was a JOKE! Nick Cannon is like..27 and Mariah is like..38!!! OMG. hmm.. lucky him, it's MARIAH CAREY ok! but then again, it's still weird. hmm..I guess I can understand, because she was married to that OLD Tommy Mottola before, when she was really really young.

He Called!!!!!!

He called! He called! He called! He just arrived in Doha! Just when I started to control my macho-ness of not to cry..I CRIED again!!! Nisa is officially a cry baby!

Still doing nothing

I am still doing nothing for the passed 6 hrs, only starring at the window. I don't even know what I'm looking at, or waiting for. I think I'm going to slap my face a couple of hundred times for not kissing him goodbye.

Welcome to my world

I just got back from the airport CDG. After the long train journey, I don't really feel like going out or seeing anybody, or play the video games. I am thinking about the job that Melanie offered me, which I already accept it. I am also thinking about getting a new apartment, and when are BOTH of my parents coming and what not. I don't really want them to come just yet, because I want to settle the apartment with Redza. Having the both of them here, will create some havoc, I'm sure.

Speaking of Redza, It was rather an emotional scenario a couple of hours ago in the airport. I am so glad that he decided to go back and do Umrah. I am so happy that he can get to see his family. How fun. I wish I could do the same, but too much work here, plus, my folks are not warm enough to talk about problems. That's how they are, making huge money is the first priority in life, think family later. How empty.

I felt so guilty about creating a havoc between my sister and the rest of the innocents. I just didn't think it will come out big. I miss Redza, I feel so home, he is my home. It is so nice when you know you have somebody that is so real, that cares for you, who loves you for you.. The WHOLE you, good and bad. Despite being in the dog eats dog world. Sometimes I don't really know where I should be, though I'm in a room of hundreds of friends, sometimes it gets so lonely. That is where He comes into the picture. So pure and innocent, so beautiful yet so painful sometimes. Love hurts.

I miss being home. after the long years of searching peace, I finally found mine. He is my love, my peace, my home, my everything. I love you

Just another day in Paris

I just can't wait for the MGS4 to come out tomorrow, I shall be the first person in the whole france to stand infront of the Micromania store for the Metal Gear Solid4.woohoo!

My Gadgets

I've been out and about to look for video games, since I am so free to do whatever I want. My beautiful gadget is useful afterall. I don't have to worry about homework anymore.hoorrraahh!!

My beautiful baby is now ready to be fully used

Say bye-bye to homework!

Graduation and Freedom

It's been a while since my last post. I've graduated recently,and manage to get my bachelor in Fashion Designing. I've been so busy planning what I'm going to do next, but I have something coming up for me this month, on the 24th. I'll be working with Elie Saab again in his Champs-Elysees boutique and his Spring/Summer 2009 Fashion Show.

I've been keeping it low lately, for some certain reason. but it turns out that, I just can't get away from the paparazzi, so I'm just gonna let it be. Whatever floats your boats, my fellow papaz..

I just can't wait for my family to come to Paris next month. We all going to look for my new apartment, since I already decided to stay in France for a bit. some people in KL are just nosey, I would like to return to my home town when the BS is over. I miss my friends no doubt, I love ya'll, but there's something that I have to take care of before I come back.

Some people think that I've made a huge error in some certain choice that I've CHOSE in life. Regardless, I prefer to pay NO attention in what the odds are saying. I just dislike backstabers, and I, will always going to follow my heart.

And for that, from now on, I would LOVE to separate the BS away from what and who's important in my life. No question please.