Saint Germain des Prés

I needed some fresh air, so I went out a couple of hours before. I was feeling a huge cabin fever, so I went for a walk around the Boulevard Saint Germain. Oh it was lovely. That place defines me. I've walked pass a quite number of shops today. Didn't have the spirit to be crazy and let loose. Nothing much happened.. wait till tomorrow! Yes!! It's FETE DE LA MUSIQUE!! There will be all sorts of band playing around Paris!Can't wait!!

My favorite Bookshop

Antique(hehe)

Le Mannequin Homme

As a designer, we never look at models in an 'evil' way. Actually, for me it is FORBIDDEN. In any case, I know there are some models-designers relationship, like the Malaysian designer, Dato Bernard Chandran who is married to his model wife Datin Mary Lourdes. But basically, it is very rare. As for me, I have my own perspective over models. There are times when my friends ask if I've ever look at any male models in a different view(you know what it is).
Well, of course, I have to be professional. It's wrong to combine pleasure and work.. Big NO NO. But all I can say is that, I do have my favorite male model. Professionally, he is a piece of work. A masterpiece. I don't think any model can top this one;

The name is David Gandy

Je n'ai pas fermé l'oeil de la nuit

It is 4.25am and I am still wide awake.. Can't sleep, after watching one of my favorite movies Count of Monte Cristo. Edmund Dantes sure do remind me of someone.sigh...

Fly Away With Me

After 6 years of life in France, it's time for him to move forward. Make a move, take a step, flyaway, to a journey of reality. It is difficult sometimes. So don't look back to the beautiful memories you've once made. Friends, foes, love, hate, laughter, sadness, all comes into the picture just before when it's time for us to leave those behind. But it's alright sweetheart, your guardian angel is always with you. Whenever you decide to fly, she will always fly away with you. Words can only describe as such. Maybe music can help others to understand you better. But you are not one of the symphony that flows a melancholy key for the humans to show sympathy.

It is more than meets the eye. So let's fly.

So...She Called

So basically my mum just called, asking me if I want to go back to Malaysia for a while and continue working in Paris after that. Well,then I said maybe she can buy me a return ticket to Malaysia somewhere in December or something, so that I can go back for good. But then again, she was telling me, who wants to hire me if I want to work for just 2 or 3 months, they will consider at least a year. So she told me to make up my mind. Hmm.. so I told her to call me tomorrow, cause I have so many things in my mind. I have brainstorming to do. If I decide not to work here, I can just chill in Paris for another 2 or 3 months, and then go back. Simple as that. If I decide to work here, I think I'll just have to gather up my strength and work for at least a year here. We'll see. Either way, I know things will work out for me. There's nothing Nisa can't handle ;)

Je ne suis pas content du tout maintenant

Yesterday night was awsome, we were talking until 3am. God,I miss him. But then again I just got to know that I won't be able to look for my new apartment with him, cause he will be going back to kl on the July 10th. So basically I don't know when he'll come back. So freaked out about that, I wanna go back too. I miss M'sian food. But my parents insist of me staying here. Damn, what am I to do? I am so caught in between. I love it here. I love Paris. It will be such a waste if I go back now. But I love Redza too, I don't think I can be without him. Plus, I am the ONLY M'sian girl in this beautiful city. Oh boy, I'm going to be more lonely than I've ever was.

Looks like I want both of my love and professional life works at the same time. looks like, I can't have best of both worlds. That is exactly what Redza told me yesterday. I know, at the end of the day, I will have to choose. Why,God,WHYYY???

Love

+

Work
(Love+Work= Ain't happenin)

OR

Love - Work = Despair

OR

Work - Love = Despair

Beautiful Day

It's a very sunny day.I like it.I LOVE it!As I was walking towards ED supermarche, I thought about my dearly savior,we always do the grocery together.and thinking of that, had put a smile on my face along the way :)

Oh wow,great.There are more and more foreigners coming to Paris..and of course,there are several groups of American students just got into the apartment.Oh my god,there are lots of them. As I went to the school just now, I accidentally walked into one of the room that is full of the exchange students from the States.and they were like, "huh"??who's that? haha. And I went to Ed just now,I came across this guy that looks exactly like James Dean, and I was telling myself,"nah,,he doesn't look French at all".

After I paid my stuff, it was that dude's turn. And the casher said, " Vous devriez peser la tomate là-bas.." and he goes,"uh?wha?" he was so hopeless and needed translation. so I told him that he should weigh the tomatoes himself first,in order to pay.And he was like, oh,oh thanks and everything. Had a little chat along the way. He thought that I'm from the states..WRONG.haha,wrong guess.

Travailler sur moi-même

Since I have so many things to do today, I am so going to get my lazy ass off to work. My eyes are swollen, I can just feel them, and it is so not fun at all. oh god, I have to get all the laundry done by today. NO MORE unclean clothes in the house. oh ya,i need to but the detergent and everything.f***

Those aren't my words

Getting angry anonymously is so not my style at all. I hope all of you jotted that down. I am just so sorry for hurting other people's feeling. I don't really write about other people in my blog, or gossips or anything like that. Maybe I have, but very rare.

I know that I've hurt my dearly loved ones..and I just want to clear the air by saying, I am so sorry, on behalf of my certain family member. And also sorry for being the one who cause the arguments between the two families. I shall not tell anything to any of my siblings, if I ever have any 'beef' with anybody. I had a 'beef' with just one particular person(ya'll know who)and it turns out that one of my soldier cant hold her fire and shoot everything she sees.

Which reminds me of Tybalt and Benvolio.
funny.

Je Suis Ravi

Yesterday was really stressful and lots of work.I'm so happy that I got to talk to my savior again. So happy. As long as we continue talking, I won't have to feel the distance. After the whole 3 days hell hole, he managed to make me laugh again :) No more trauma, no more drama. hehe :P

Out of Words, Out of Care

It's 12 am, still not asleep. ... I was pausing for quite a while, thinking of exactly how I feel right now. Let see, em.. I think.. I'll be taking a break for a while. I won't be blogging like crazy. But don't worry, I'll blog whenever I feel like it.. or if I found something brand new to talk about. Something juicy ;) In a mean time, stay tuned!

Drives me crazy when I try to fight it.

I try but I cant seem to get myself
To think of anything
But you
Your breath on my face
Your warm gentle kiss I taste the truth
I taste the truth

We know what I came here for
So I won`t ask for more

I wanna be with you
If only for a night
To be the one whose in your arms
Who holds you tight
I wanna be with you
There`s nothing more to say
There`s nothing else I want more than to feel this way
I wanna be with you

So I`ll hold you tonite
Like I would if you were mine
to hold forever more
And I`ll saver each touch that I wanted
So much to feel before
How beautiful it is
Just to be like this

Oh baby
I can`t fight this feeling anymore
It drives me crazy when I try to
So call my name
Take my hand
Make my wish
Baby, your command?

It Stings like a Bee

So this is how it feels like when you miss someone so bad. Dayyyumn son!It hurts! I hate it. I hate this feeling right now. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it. It's not me at all. It's not Diva. It's something else.I feel like slapping my face a couple of times again, because the Diva inside doesn't help me at all. The 'Diva' word, doesn't even fit me anymore. I don't feel the Diva-ness like I use to. Now I don't know how to describe myself. If I am not what I use to be, then what am I? It's just not making any sense. I can feel it inside, that I am not at all the "All That Diva-ish girl". It's like a very BIG step for me to admit that, and for leaving it behind, it's like when Puff Daddy changed his a.k.a to P.Diddy.

It's HUGE.

What's happening to the world!!