Clueless

Mama, mama, mama.. She wants me to be independent, and pick my own house. But it seems like she have a lot of say when it comes to her daughter named, Nisa. Today, we visited 2 apartments. The first apartment was big, it's a studio apartment, with kitchen, bathroom, and also a 26square meter bedroom. It was okay, because of the width. But then again, my mother said, that area is so dangerous if I were to walk alone after work..yeah...I agree.. but the place is big enough for me. The second apartment, well..it was extremely pretty, clean, but it's small..and again..my mother didn't like it. I am so clueless, and pissed off at the same time. Maybe because she always slow me down every time I have a meeting with the apartment's caretaker. And the results..I am on fever, the extreme one. I am currently coughing, non stop. I wish she could just pick one apartment, and be done with it. I am sick, and I am also sick of the picky behavior. *Coughing*

Clueless chick

Times like these, makes me think about Redza. And automatically, I'll feel hopeless.. PLEASE BABY SAVE ME!! Since I am feeling so Bleah. I decide to steal this survey from Farah, just to make me feel a little less awful. Ready.. Set.. Whatever.

1. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?
:: more like a sign of respect

2. A big poofy dress or a short party dress?
:: a big poofy dress!

3. What would you do if you received a long love letter?
:: If I don't like the guy, I'll laugh out loud.

4. Group dates or single dates?
:: Group dates!
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5. Do you hate it when guys act different around their friends?
:: yeah, thank god my man is himself whenever and wherever

6. Are diamonds a girl’s best friend?
:: well..I'm not much of a diamonds. Just give me those LVs!

7. Is your hair up or down today?
:: down

8. Do you straighten your hair?
:: nope

9. Favorite mascara?
:: MAC

10. Do you get your nails done?
:: sometimes

11. Small or large purses?
:: large!

12. In your handbag, what are your must haves?
:: my purse, sun glasses, perfume, lip gloss, eye liner, pen, small notebook

13. Jeans or sweats?
:: Neither

14. Do you wear clothes/shoes/jewelry that’s uncomfortable?
:: Most of the time

15. Do you text message a lot?
:: yes!

16. What would you do if you got pregnant?
:: I'm sure I'll be excited and make a surprise dinner for my hubby

17. What’s your favorite color?
:: grey

18. Heels or flats?
:: Both

19. Did you ever cry during a romantic movie?
:: yes. haha

20. Would you ever leave the house without make-up on?
:: yeah

21. Walmart or Target?
:: Neither

22. Do you wear collared shirts?
:: yup

23. Do you like preppy boys?
:: Not at all. preppy boys are sissy. Sporty boys turns me on..

24. Do you think lip gloss is the best?
:: yea, why not.. whatever makes you happy

25. Do you own any big sunglasses?
:: a lot

26. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
:: an hour

27. Do you like to wear band-aids?
:: no

28. Do you like skater boys?
:: I am so over it.

29. Do you often wish there was something you could change?
:: not at all

30. Gold or silver?
:: silver

31. Do you like to receive flowers?
:: Again, it depends on the person who gave it.

32. Do you like surfer boys?
:: Um.. I am so over it. again

33. Do you dress up for the holidays?
:: Of course.

34. Do you like to wear dresses?
:: Oh Yeah!

35. On a scale of 1-10 how much do guys confuse you?
:: 3

36. In the last 48 hours have you hung out with a guy?
:: Nope

37. Would you date a guy shorter than you?
:: Nope

38. Do you like to hold hands?
:: No..not just any hands.

39. What is the youngest you would date?
:: Maybe.. none? how bout that.

40. What is the oldest you would date?
:: no age in particular. As long as he is charming and understanding

41. What do you notice when you first meet a guy?
:: his face and body. rarrrrr

42. Is it hot when guys sweat?
:: Depends on the situation he's in ..

43. What is the best feature in a guy?
:: his chest & eyes ..

44. Do you like making eye contact?
:: yes ..

46. Would you kill for chocolate?
:: no
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47. Did you ever spend all day/night getting pretty for a guy?
:: oh man.. yeah.. just for this one particular person

48. On a scale from 1-10 how fun is shopping?
:: 10! 10! 10!

49. Do you freak out if you miss your favorite show?
:: no

50. Do you yell a lot?
:: no. but i can yell pretty good

51. Do you wear sweatpants/pajamas to school/work?
:: no!

52. Have you ever dressed unlike yourself to impress a guy?
:: no..

53. Do you write a lot of mushy love poems?
:: no..a lot of it will make you grow a LOSER sign on your forehead

C'est Finir!

Apartment Hunting

Looks like I won't be needing this apartment, although it's in a good area, but..It's on the 7th floor, WITHOUT elevator!! Sigh.. This is tough. I hate apartment hunting. I feel like going for a holiday. So stressed out. I am waiting for this one guy to call me on Monday, about his apartment. I hope I get to rent it, because there are a lot of people in line. I hope he'll pick me!

7th floor, without lift..how dumb

Lucky Lucky Oh You're so Lucky

I got my first apartment meeting at 7pm. I hope that the studio apartment looks nice, if not, I have to go for a lot more of apartment's meeting. I just want to move my stuff as soon as possible. Oh, and guess what? When I am back in Malaysia, Redza is still going to be there!! yay! Although I have to do things on my own now, I feel relief, because I get to see him in KL. Plus, I know God is testing me, my ability in dealing things on my own, because it's not like everybody will do stuff for me forever. Furthermore, This is the life I chose, so I have to be strong and be happy with it. Which I am, truly. I have to toughen up, for the sake of me, and for the sake of my dearest beloved. And basically, I know there is nothing that I can't handle.

I really hope that my blog doesn't portray sadness, like some.. I am aware of where I'm standing, and my god, I am happy with my life right now. Couldn't be better than this. I couldn't ask for another. I know that some would die to be in my position right now. As long as love is inside me, I will be happy for eternity. Monsieur Da Vinci once said, "Life without love, isn't a life at all."

So Mr. Double R, looks like I'll be seeing you next month!

Christian Dior

Finally! There is a job opening in Dior house. Looks like this time around, they need a Lingerie assistant stylist. Sounds fun for the boys.. I hope that I can get through the interview. I am so thrilled!! If I get it, I am so sure that it's going to be so exciting, since I've never work with lingerie before, must be interesting. I wonder why they didn't open a job offer in the Men's Underwear department..Well, THAT is going to be reaaally exciting :D

Givenchy

Finally! LMVH group got something for me. yes, I have submitted my French CV and also my French motivation letter to the site. I'm applying for the position of assistante styliste Homme. yea,if I just can nail the interview, I get to work for Givenchy...Men. Fingers Crossed!!

By the way, I got feedbacks for my last post..especially on my 2 photos. Go figure.

My idol, Audrey Hepburn for Givenchy

Drop Dead Gorgeous

Exactly Drop DEAD. Photo courtesy of Paparazzi Aiman

I can still do the 'Fabulous Faking-it Smile'

We went to the L'Opera this morning to change my flight ticket. We just discovered that the Malaysian Airlines System's office has been moved to Saint Lazare. So, we took a cab there, but it was shocking because.. there were no sign of MAS office at all, no billboard whatsoever. We even had to look for the office by pushing every single button in the elevator..isn't it sad... My mother was complaining to the counter lady, and she said that they just got settled like, a week ago. That explains. And then she was mentioning the name of her boss...Mr. Mohd. Zainudin...Uncle Zainudin!!Omg! So I was like "Is he here?" So that lady said,"na..he's not here." haha, nevertheless, what a small world. I met this one beautiful lady, she is on her way to Malaysia, for a vacation. How nice.. She had been to Malaysia twice.. and she is currently staying somewhere near my Parisian house..Saint Germain des Pres. How lovely. Her name is Isabella, and she owns a gallery of paintings in Saint Germain. She gave me her card, so that I can drop by anytime, maybe have lunch or cup of coffee. How cool is that.

I actually want to go back later than 9th of August, so that I can spend sometime alone with Redza. It's been like a hell hole for me here, missing somebody can be a total fatal. So, I actually asked the counter lady if I were to change the ticket, do I need to pay more.. and basically, I was asking her in French, so that my mom wouldn't understand, so that also she don't have to go berserk on me. She reminded me the same thing..over and over again, "Nisa, your papa misses you very much.." uhuh, sure. See, the thing is, it's not that I don't want to go back and spend time with my family. But every time I do, a lot of disappointing events just keep on happening. As I recall, the last time I was in KL to visit my family, he wasn't around at all. Where is the family in that? Reality check.. Golf, Friends, or networking whatever is more important than me right.. No problems. So I'll be doing the same thing too.. Shopping, Movies, Friends, Chilling, and maybe some 'Networking'.

Well, whatever it is, I know what's important. My priorities are given to me, since in the beginning of this journey.

Mon Amour et Ma Responsabilité

Tu me manques tellement. Tu es l'amour de ma vie. Je suis si heureux d'avoir trouve quelqu'un comme toi. T'es tout pour moi, et plus que j'ai jamais reve de rencontrer. Je m'en fous quoi tout ceux ont dit. Je t'aime pour toujours et a jamais..

Have you ever tasted something so wonderful, so beautiful, so unforgettable that you just won't trade it for the world? Have you ever felt like you want something so bad, that you would kill? Have you ever made a wrong decision, and it turns out to be a beautifully gorgeous mistake, that you just simply repeats it over and over again? Have you ever felt that as if your head is spinning, and your soul is flying, which makes your purpose of living changed in just one kiss.. Have you ever literally dying on missing someone.. Have you ever been touched by love?

I feel like as if I am a soul that trapped in somebody else's body. Why am I talking like this? Who am I? Who is this? An imposter! Oh Lord, save me before the fire starts to burn out..

Bonne Fête de l'Independance à tous les Francais!

Today is the French Independence Day, and also the day my mum and little bro arrived in Paris. They are so lucky because both of them get to see all the cadets marching. They were everywhere around L'Opera. Men with uniforms.. emmmmhmmm, scrumscious..











And of course, I tried to get into the same Japanese Restaurant which Oreo took me to the other day, but it was closed, so I took my mum and my bro to this one fancy Japanese Restaurant just across the Malaysian Tourism Center, in Palais Royal.

My yummy meal


My mummy's Salmon Salad

Sacré Sourire

Pour mon cheri Redza, cette chanson me fait penser à toi, vraiment..Parce que, tu te rappelles de mon vilain sourire? hehe..just listen to it hun. Really nice. Yet another cool song I found in the 'Simply Irresistible' Soundtrack. J'aime le chanson!!

Nobody knows it but you've got a secret smile
And you use it only for me
Nobody knows it but you've got a secret smile
And you use it only for me

So use it and prove it
Remove this whirling sadness
I'm losing, I'm bluesing
But you can save me from madness

Nobody knows it but you've got a secret smile
And you use it only for me
Nobody knows it but you've got a secret smile
And you use it only for me

So save me, I'm waiting
I'm needing, hear me pleading
And soothe me, improve me
I'm grieving, I'm barely believing now, now

When you are flying around and around the world
And I'm lying alonely
I know there's something sacred and free reserved
And received by me only

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